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| What's a God like you doing with a guy like me? Why should You have to pay for my sins and my shortcoming? Why in all of creation where You thinking when the thought, "Hey, I'm gunna kill someone I love the most" crossed Your mind? Why would You ever let the people You considered as enemies brutally torture and crucify Your Son so that You could spend the rest of eternity with me?
I have no answer. I'm in awe of the intensity of this radical love of Yours and Your obsession of me. Speechless. Will You make Your love known to those attending Dai Hoi? "Once again You are going to shake everything that can be shaken".... will You shake us and break us? Cause grief and anguish in our hearts for sinning against You and living selfishly. Forgive us for being content in our attempts to put You in a box. Break the chains of religion and invite us into a divine relationship with You.
"Help me fulfill all Your dreams for [Dai Hoi]. Jesus, I'll patiently wait".... and I will wait through fasting and praying to see You shake what can be shaken. Come Lord Jesus, come.
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This is so frustrating. I ate something and my whole body is breaking out in rashes. It's itching like no other. Because of the intensity of the itch, I can't sleep. The doctors gave me some drugs so that I fall asleep. I'm starting to feel the effects of the drugs and it's making me sleepy... but I can't sleep because it iches too bad!! Its a vicious cycle of a tease. sigh =( back to my huge stack of hw i guess.
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I'm suppose to be working on a paper, but I need a break ;)
On Monday, I woke up late for class.  I got dressed in my work clothes (since I go straight from class to work). I work for the Admissions Office here on campus. I was late and did not really care what I looked like. I'm suppose to work at 12-1pm which is "office hour" so I am in the back filing applications and stuff. So I figured, who cares . It's not like anyone's gunna see me! Just as I was heading out the door, I was caught off guard when I thought I heard God say, "You should shave." wat the heck?! 
I thought it was just me caring about how I looked, so I sat there and reasoned with myself that I am working in the back today and that there's no one to impress. hahaa. but as I walked out the door, i felt really uncomfortable and the "call" to shave was stronger than ever . I went back, took the shaver, went to the mirror, and said to myself, "this is riduculous. I'm already late to class  " but shaved anyways.
I got to the office later and my boss pulls me aside and says, "Hey, this is sorta last minute, but a family came in for the 11o'clock tour but they missed it because they were late. I know that we don't normally do a 12pm tour, but can you give them one anyways? " hahahhahahhaha. of course I can!  she looked at me and said, "Thanks for dressing all professional and looking clean even though its your office hour "
God cared enough about me to tell me to shave. HAHHAA!
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All that I cling to
I lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me
...and what was once a pearl
now sand
That blows away
That blows away
In light of Him
~Grace is Sufficient - Shane&Shane
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I slept until noon today because the snow last night made it too dangerous to drive back to school. We could have driven back, but mom and dad asked us not to because it made them feel really uneasy, so we stayed home instead.
I woke up at noon to the sound of my mom's voice... which was weird. I got up to see why she's home early from work and she laughed and said, "We got laid off !" I told her, "Mom, that's not something to joke about these days "
She settled down to a calm smile and said, "No, really. Dad and I got laid off today."
After hearing that, I thanked God for the snow that would not allow us to go back to school Sunday night. We knew that the company was closing. We thought it was gunna be in the summer, but we didn't know it was gunna be this soon
Let's start at the beginning of the day...
My dad calls my aunt and asks about the road condition (since my uncle also works at the same company). My aunt says the road has cleared up a lot and is safe to drive on again.
They head to work and as they're working, they notice that one by one, people are disappearing They get called into the office by one of their superiors. Dad holds mom's hand and walks to the office and says, "I'm totally callin' it! They're laying us off ."
When they got there, the manager asked them to sit and explained that they were gunna get laid off and apologizes profusely for it. Mom and Dad smile and said, "Hey, it's ok. Thanks for keeping us as long as you did .I know you tried your best Thanks for everything!" The manager saw the genuine gratitude that my parents expressed and was moved to tears. Everyone else left storming out of there or cussing her out, so for my parents to show grace really moved her heart.
As my dad was packing up his stuff, he also heard his friend got laid off and was comforting him saying, "It's ok. Pray and see what God can do for you!" (The man was non-Christian). The man turns to my dad and says, "Easy for you to say! Your God has always protected you and guided you wherever you went."
When we got home, my aunt called, apologizing for the sad news. She was telling us how when she heard the news, she was so bewildered and confused and worried that she wasn't thinking straight for a couple of hours. (Her husband is on of 4 people that are still working for the company clearning things up. Everyone else got laid-off). Dad chuckled and said, "Thanks for letting us know that it was safe to drive to work! I'm glad we went because we got laid off, thanks to you!" hahahaha. i think we found it funnier than she did
Overall, i was extremely impressed at how my parents handled it. They're the ones who lost the job, but I took it harder than they did. Mom and Dad was tellin me and Josh how the Holy Spirit came and gave them this Christ-centered peace as the manager told them the news. It is purely by the peace of God that they came home smiling, laughing, and able to joke about it. Even in their darkest moment, their light shined for those around them as they walked out those doors. Even when the waves came crashing down mercilessly, my parents continued to be a witness of Christ. It reminds me of this verse:
" You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." ~ Gen. 50:20
Like everyone else, I asked them, "So mom, are you guys gunna start searching for a new job?"
Then came her reply, which caught me off guard, yet granted me the same peace that she had, "We're gunna search for God "
My parent's confidence in God's provision was beyond words. I've heard it preached, but I've never seen it in action... so to witness this kind of faith left me speechless.
I can't believe how blessed I am to have parents of such faith and confidence in a God who is faithful and just!
JEHOVAH JIREH!!
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